lily bear........

how i miss you so much today
how i just want to hold you and hug you and give you all the kisses in the world
how im so happy you got your first two teeth but sad at the same time becuase i wasnt there to see you grow them
i love you lily and im glad you have a family who is able to take care of you and love you too the way i would of loved you
i miss you you and just want to hold you and i know that that is ok i know ill be ok i am still happy for what i did but i still have thos days

my life passing before my eyes......dec 19

someone i will always love she gave me life and hope

i love my crazy family

Sarurday i woke up very early not really wanting to go into work was very tired and have beeen talking about finding a new job cuz havent been feeling like i fit in with the ppl at work. Well as the day goes by so sllllloooooowwwww i had all the mean customers you could think of i had a lady yell at me for not giving out her daughters info on her account (witch by the way is not aloud) i had a confusing customer who was doing a huge money order cuz she was buying a new car and was asking me all these questions (i couldnt even answer one of her hard questions) she was from canada and was very scary. I even had only a 15 min lunch! I honestly didnt think this day could get any worse........I WAS WRONG!!!! Some where around 230-3ish i was the only teller up front it was slow during that time so the other tellers decided to do some of the closing duties so we would all get out on time. well aman walked in to my bank you could tell he was in a hurry i greeted him like i usually do (smile, welcome them to wells fargo and ask the customer how there day is goin so on and so forth) well the tall mexican i would say he was around 6ft 3" some what built walked up to me he was wearing a black BHER hat black plastic 80 style sunglasses a band aid over his nose with a red dot on it like rudolph the red nose and a meican style mustache he unfolded his deposit slip what it read was a big surprise to me it was something i never thought would happen to me it said: "NOALARAMS GIVE ME ALL YOUR MONEY" well after i read the horrible letter i hurried and turned around looking at my manager and then did what the man told me to i gave him my money......he kept rushing me telling me to hurrry and faster. Well my first drawer did not satisfy the scary man so he asked me for my second drawer i opened it telling him there was nothing in it he looked and then left the building. i stood in shock not knowing what just happen didnt know if i should cry or just be happy i was still alive. But that whole time it was happening all i could think about was im not ready to die i have a man i love whom i wanting to marry i have a daughter i would like to watch grow up (whitch ive decided to start a journal for her so she can have when she is older i would like her to know my side of the story) and i wanted to tell my mom how much i love her and how she is an amazing person who has gone thro sso much and is a stronger person because of it. I thank god for saving my life that day god gives me LOTS of trials to go threw and im unsure why he picked me to have as many as i do have but i do know he only gives us as much as we can handle. well im unsure if the man was ever caught i know that that got one guy that looked like the same guy but i wasnt for sure if it was him so i couldnt say yes. I had derek pick me up from work that day i could not drive after being in that kind of shock we ended up going to my familys xmas dinner whitch was super good but the whole rest oh the night i really thought there was someone out to get me i couldnt sleep the rest the night i know ill get over this but it was just so scary

Saturday and sunday our special days..........

Our silliness

Saturday drinking water having a blast was actually allot of fun!!!

Ah boyfriend your so good to put up with me lol sory for waking ya
ha ha derek you bum
This is our kinda sunday
EDEN!!!!
Can i say muffin top ;)
and this is why cooking takes forever....
we are so silly!!
So this weekend has been so much fun!! Derek parents went out of town to help paint a friends house so derek and i decided to have a fun enjoyable afternoon with each other. When we first got to his house of cousre we had to play with eden she is such a cute and precious girl. Then the hunger started to kick in and him and i are broke as a joke so we went to the store and we decided to make steak tacos!! yummy i know be jealous lol! Well cooking with him is just so much fun i love having someone i can be with as a friend and also a spouse. Well after that it was a pretty laid back sit on the couch with eden kinda day until we all decided to listen to some techno and dance enden is so funny when she dances its sooo cute! Well derek and i later that night were invited to go to buffalo wild wings with some friends cuz one of the night crew guys at the depot are moving...sad(tear) so it was more of a going away thing. Nothing beats drinking some water while everyone else is getting drink. Its quite entertaining how funny some ppl can be but it was alot of fun and im just glad i can still have fun with out breaking any of my morals.

~sunday~
Well news is im moving into dereks brother and sister in law for the time being so we decided to go to there ward today. Well it happened to also be primary program today and jona derek's nephew was so cute and funny!!! Now note to all the primary program ppl three year old cant sit that long so it would prob be best if you didnt make it so looooooooooooooooooooong...,but jona did a great job. The rest of the day has been a lay back and be lazy with derek kinda day sense im not to excited to be going back to work tomo and workin my butt off so i figured i would be a bum while i got the chance well love you all stay tuned for next time!!!
Pe@ce & Love

my family
my love
mad hatter
m-alice

the day lindsay brought me and belly lily jamba and ultra sound pics

lately....................................

So lately ive been really happy with my life.. Things are so amazing with lily and her family and im so excited and so blessed that she will finally be sealed to a worthy family in the church. (for thoughs that dont know that was a big reason why i plced i felt she needed to be sealed in the church and i was unable to do that for her at the time) Derek and i have our bumps in the road but are always able to fix the problems and move and learn from them. I am so blessed to have a boyfriend who can put up with my crazy silliness and understand me for me. I love him. I finally can say i have a job!! And a good job i'll be working for wells fargo and im just so excited to work... weird i know someone who actually like/loves to work. I was able to go to my brother and sisters piano recital and they we're amazing and i actually got along with everyone (for the most part) lol

Well any way sorry that i haven't blogged in a while i don't have get to use the computer much but i will try harder well i love you all and thanks for the comments

So my family are really big fans of Halloween and are way obsessed with the post apocalypse. Well my friend robyn called me the other day and invited me to go to her singles ward F.H.E. which we all got to dress up for halloween. Well we decided to dress up as our favorite thing the post apocalypse yay for us it was so much fun! I CANT WAIT TO FINALLY KILL ZOMBIES! GO POST APOCALYPSE HURRY UP AND GET HERE ALREADY!

My adventures!!!

So lately Derek and I have started to do mare and more the spur of the moment adventures. About a month ago we decided to go to Tonto national park in payson. it one of the most prettiest things ever i think. And its always more fun with you boyfriend of course. :) Well yesterday after having dinner with lily and her family (which dinner by the way was AMAZING!) We decided to go to this really cool haunted house i believe was called scream farm? Well any who it was four haunted houses the first one we went to was alice and wonderland it was soooo scary and of course derek likes to scare me so right when we got into the haunted house HE LEFT ME!! Yes yes i know what a jerk right! ugh i chased after him cuz i was so scared he said sorry and we went on our way to get the poop scared out of us. Now when you look at a haunted house title you think that would be the theme well this one was alice in wonderland. IT HAD NOTHING TO ALICE AND WONDERLAND! BLA. now granted it was still very scary but if your going to have a theme stick with the dang theme dont put some random guy who looks like to Texas chain saw guy it just doesnt go! Any who well right at the exit there was this guy with a CHAIN SAW! YES a CHAIN SAW! It scared the crap out of me, derek ran out of the house and i was stuck with this guy and he wouldnt let me out! Just kept moving that stupid chain saw out at me i about cryed but he finally let me out. Well any way i love my boyfriend he is amazing and im so glad he is willing to do silly lil things like drive out to the middle of now where cuz im having a bad day and i just want to drive or just sit at home and watch movies all day. Well i love you all and yes I FINALLY GOT A BLOG!