Tuesday, June 15, 2010

SO SOON...

I CANT BELIEVE LILY IS GOIN TO BE ONE NEXT MONTH.. IT JUST SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT SHE WAS JUST STILL A BUMP IN MY TUMMY! I THINK ITS A BITTER SWEET.. I KINDA DONT KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO HANDLE THE FACT THAT SHE IS GOIN TO HAVE A BIRTHDAY AND HOW BIG SHE HAS GOTTEN. I LOVE LILY WITH ALL MY HEART AND I HAVENT LOVED OR CARED FOR ANYTHING AS MUCH AS I DO WITH THAT LITTLE ANGEL. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL WONDERING AND WAITING TO SEE WHAT SHE WAS GOIN TO LOOK LIKE... WHEN I FINALLY SAW HER SHE WAS BEAUTIFUL SHE WAS 7 LB. AND 7 ONC. AND TOOK A VERY LONG TIME FOR HER TO COME INTO THIS WORLD! I REMEMBER LINDSAY AND MY AUNT AND MOM BEING THERE FOR ME THREW THE WHOLE THING AND HOW WONDERFUL IT WAS TO HAVE BOTH OF HER MOMMIES IN THE ROOM WAITING FOR HER TO COME.. I WAS SO EXCITED FOR LINDSAY TO BE ABLE TO HOLD HER DAUGHTER FOR THE FIRST TIME IT WAS SO NICE TO SEE THE EXPRESSION ON LINDSAYS FACE WHEN SHE SAW HER DAUGHTER I KNOW LINDSAY AND DANIEL WERE THE RIGHT PARENTS FOR LILY EVEN BEFORE WE CAME TO THIS EARTH I THINK LILY CHOOSE US AND I AM HAPPY TO SAY THAT I WAS LILYS BIRTH MOTHER AND LINDSAY AND DANIEL ARE HER PARENTS.

WELL.. SOME FUN INTERESTING STORIES DURING THE LABOR OF LILY...

I WAS TO BE INDUCED ON SUNDAY AROUND 3PM I WAS SO SCARED I ALMOST HAD COLD FEET GOING TO THE HOSPITAL MY AUNT HAD TO PRETTY MUCH DRAG ME TO THE CAR BUT BEFORE THAT I ASKED MY UNCLE TO GIVE ME LIKE 5 BLESSINGS EARLIER THAT WEEK... WHEN I GOT TO THE HOSPITAL MY AUNT WASNT GOIN TO STAY UNTIL LILY WAS BORN BUT MY AUNT DID DRAG MY MOM ASIDE AND TOLD HER "IF SHE NEEDS ME YOU BETTER CALL ME OR ILL KILL YOU" (I THINK SHE SAID SOMETHING ALONG THOS LINES) LOL MY FAMILY IS VERY PROTECTIVE.. SO WHEN I GOT IN THE LABOR ROOM THEY PUT ME ON POTOCINE AND MAN DID IT MAKE ME ANGRY AND THINK IT WAS MORE THE PEANUT GALLARY ASKIN IF I FELT EVERY CONTRACTION EVERY MINUTE THAT I HAD ONE AKA LINDS AND MY MOM LOL.. LOVE YOU BOTH SO FINALLY MONDAY COMES AND LILY IS ALMOST HERE IM LISTENING TO MY PINK FLOYD AND WRITING IN MY JOURNAL AND TEXTING IN BETWEEN PUSHES IT WAS A VERY RELAXED CHILL LABOR IF I MIGHT SAY SO LOL. GIVING LIFE TO A SWEET LITTLE GIRL IS A WONDERFUL FEELING BUT GIVING LIFE FOR AN AMAZING FAMILY IS ONE FEELING I CANT EXPLAIN I LOVE THE FACT THAT I WAS ABLE TO HAVE THE THOMAS FAMILY THERE FOR MY WHOLE EXPERIENCE IN THE HOSPITAL AND SEEING LOGAN JUST LOVE HIS SISTER AND NOT WANT TO LET GO OVER HER WAS PROBABLY THE CUTEST THING EVER.

PLACEMENT DAY...
PLACEMENT DAY WAS VERY SPIRITUAL.. I WAS ABLE TO HAVE MY FAMILY AND LINDSAY AND DANIEL AND THERE FAMILY THERE HEARING EVERYONES TESTIMONYS WAS SO AMAZING THAT WILL BE ONE DAY ILL NEVER FORGET LILY AND I BOTH GOT BEARS THAT MATCHED AND MY BEAR WAS NAMED LILY BEAR I LOVE THAT THING I PRETTY MUCH SLEEP WITH IT EVERY NIGHT (SO DOES LILY WHICH IS REALLY CUTE) I WAS VERY GRATEFUL TO BE ABLE TO WALK LILY TO DAN AND LINDS CAR AND BE ABLE TO SAY GOOD BYE ON MY OWN TERMS BUT GOOD BYE FOR VERY LONG..

WELL A YEAR HAS PAST AND LILY IS A VERY HAPPY HEALTHY BABY I AM JUST SO THANKFUL FOR THE THOMAS FAMILY AND BEING ABLE TO HAVE AN OPEN ADOPTION WITH THEM AND TO ALSO HAVE THEM AS MY GOOD FRIENDS

4 comments:

  1. Wow, I can't believe it's been that long either. I've never even seen a picture of her! Mark your calendar for pamper night on July 14th if you are in town. Hope to see ya!

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  2. It's been a fast, fun and perfect year. We are grateful to you for your sacrifice and friendship.

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  3. Chelsea darling-
    This was a very special post. I loved it! I was so happy that I got to be there by your side the entire days/nights. For me, being able to help you and welcome my sweet Lily into this world will be absolutely one of the most memorable and wonderful experiences of my life. Getting to cut the cord--how many Mothers get to say that?!--and holding and meeting her for the first time was amazing. I know she knew me and I too, knew her. It was just pure joy for our family. You are a brave and special daughter of God; don't ever forget how wonderful you are.

    I am so happy for your friendship as well. Thank you for your decision to place Lily into our family and to find us and bring her to us, her family for forever. We are forever and daily grateful for that.

    I love you!

    p.s. Thank you for being respectful of Lily's privacy, too.

    p.s.s. I didn't think I asked you that much on those contractions :) Goodness, you were texting and acting like it was a breeze...so how could I not resist?! xoxox

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  4. This was a great post. Thanks for sharing. We love having an open adoption. It is such a blessing to have our twins birth family as a part of our lives!
    http://gfornicoia.blogspot.com/2010/08/letter-to-adoptee.html

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